About me. :)

I am very emotional right now, and I have no medium to vent on or talk to.
That's why i am using blogger to confide and I am aware that only a few of my friends know this blog, that's why I can totally blog out my feelings here. (but please don't go around discussing it)
There are 2 things which I'm very upset about - Internship and ______(guess I don't have to spell out).

1) Internship
Attachment has already started for 3 days, and I still don't have much to do when I'm at my company. Other interns, but different division, have much more things to do than me. It makes me feel like I'm more of a burden than an asset to my in-charge in one way or another. It affects my morale, my spirits and probably my esteem. It just affects me.

This is the scenerio - I am posted to this division whereby they are focusing on just ONE major event which can make or break the company's reputation, where 3 other interns were posted to another division whereby they handle smaller scale but multiple events at once.

My division is already in the middle stage of the event preparation and my sudden appearance in the company makes it difficult for them to fit me into this event preparation (they never say this, but I am fully aware of that myself). Worst of all, I have no knowledge on event industry, the information of the event and experiences in event planning too. Of course, I do not blame them as they are practically nice and friendly people, blame it on my luck.

I felt so reluctant to go to work every morning. Time passes by so slowly when you have nothing to do at all. Tutors in the school may say "you should have more initiative and ask for work to do". Oh yes I did, but they have nothing for me to do sometimes, and asking it a few more times will only make myself a nuisance to my colleagues (or maybe I should say to the people behind me....)

Overall, people there are great, just that my perspective isn't that optimistic.

2) (You know who)
Yea, when one thing isn't going smoothly, others will not too.
It's the law of repercussion.
When I badly needed someone to talk to and someone to be there for me, you weren't there.
Honestly, you were missing in action. I do not want to comment too much on our issues here.
But you should uds, since you are not there for me, blog is the only way I can pour out my feelings.

Alright, enough whining - LIFE FUCKING GOES ON CUS' THE WORLD KEEPS SPINNING AROUND!

*Note to myself - Stay positive siang chong! :)

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Name: Ong Siang Chong

DOB: 22march1991

Hometown: Singapore, Little India

Institution: Temasek Polytechnic, Hospitality and Tourism Management

Company: -

Views on Life: Is either Love My Life, or Fuck My Life